► Bahamut Sphere 【Sync】 Atelier Freya ◄: Life-ism

最近。。。 PART.2

Fri, 27 Jul 2007 06:11:09 GMT

日本和服　～浴衣～

Thu, 26 Jul 2007 17:08:04 GMT

やっと夏休みがまた始まるんだ～　別に学校って大変と言う事じゃないけど、でもこんなもの1年半続けってるんってすまらなくなるだろ～

だって学校ってすまらないものばかりじゃん、自分で分かるけど未来のためか、学生の責任とか。。。。

でもさ～何か勉強の気持ちも全滅に無くちゃった

そのわけで今の成績どんどん減っていく～　もうダメだ！これ以上なら必ずヤバイぞ！すぎの専門学校の受験も近いし～

ゴメン自分の漫言ばかり言いちゃった～

日本の夏ってやっぱりビキニと浴衣が人気になってるんだよね～

んで浴衣ってさ～

僕、昔から和服と言う事は興味があるんので、特に日本と中国の和服。。。

何かってさ～和服を着て女性ってスゴクきれいで美人になってるんだ。。。僕はそう思うんですけど～　
（笑）

といえば～「和服ってもとより女か男か見られるように作ったん」聞いた事がある、それは間違いないと思う、

だってさ、男と女の和服に比べてぜんぜん違うだろ、ま～今も多分同じですけど、今は男らしい女の服もあるし、また男の服で女っぽい見らるんもある～

とりあず、それは大切じゃないっす、今話したいは高級と普通の浴衣、どのぐらい違いが見られるんでしょうか～？

さて、この写真をご覧下さい：

右と左浴衣どちもっと良い物でしょか？

※一つhiromi nakanoブランド、ほかの普通の京都ブランド

もし写真小さくて見られないなら、それはいいんです～

例えこの写真でどちもっと良い物を見られないなら、それは面白い！

なぜ高級物を買った、もし普通物もう良さそう？

僕は高級浴衣と普通浴衣見たら違うってあまり見られないと思うんだ。。。織物もそんな違うはないし。。。

そしたらどんな違うがあるかい？どうして高級物のお値段が高い？

それは多分手作りとデサインだと思うん。。。僕の先生から聞いたとおり、最近の普通浴衣はもう手作りじゃない、つまりミシンで作った物なんだ～

んでそうゆう事って大切でしょうか？毎年新しい物を着ての方が良いんじゃない？

ま～それは一人（自分）で決めた物だ～

僕はもしその美しい和服まだ見られるさえ良いんだ、手作りかミシン作りか関係無し～　＾Ｏ＾

って言うか～

実はこの浴衣ってプレセントのため買ったんだ～

でも、今ちょっと悩む事があるので。。。あげるかどうか～まもなく考えます　（笑）

答え：普通の浴衣、京都のブランド（Ｔ．Ｒｅｉｋｏ）

Ｎ・Ｈ浴衣＋松田聖子プチ帯

それとＹＨＪでめちゃ美しい物が発見！

それはカスタム浴衣だ～

スゲきれいッスだろ！（笑）

着たらお姫様見たいかもね～

興味ある人はmittann5963と言う出品者を探し見て～

ＰＳ※今日体の調子あまり良くない、喉の痛み何だ～　Ｔ＿Ｔ

また巣鴨の夏祭り。。。盆踊り～

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 18:05:27 GMT

もう夏だよね、空気も熱くなってし、出てる時汗絶対に出る。。。

また我慢しなきゃ～皆さんも2ヶ月ぐらい頑張れね！

とにかく、同じ毎年、夏中っていつも色々場所で夏祭がある～

皆さんはどう？今年の夏祭もう行ったかい？

僕ってそうゆう文化が好きなので、できれば参加したい、別に踊るですけれども、でも祭りで色々見て楽しいと思うん～　（笑）

って言うか、今年って巣鴨の盆踊りまた同じ場所である　（盆踊り場所いつも同じだよね？　＾Ｏ＾；；）

巣鴨盆踊りって昨日から（07月21日）始めたけど、昨日は遅くまで帰ってたので、盆踊りもう終わちゃった。。。。

今日も実は勉強つもり何ですけど（スタバ池袋で）何となく体が動かないので　－＿－　何か昨日疲れた過ぎ。。。

んで「まいや～」と思って、盆踊りもあるし、晩ご飯は盆踊りで売って食べ物良いんじゃんと思うんので

盆踊り行ったんだ～

ソーセージや好み焼きや掻き氷など食べちゃった、美味しかった！！

今年の夏休み楽しみ～～～～～

さて～これで盆踊りの写真～

同じと去年

美味しい食べ物

好み焼きコーナー

飴＋じゃんけん

じゃんけん勝ったら二つ飴もらえる～

人人人

バンド

また人人人

同じ。。。。

たこ焼きコーナー

焼き肉？

これ、父親と娘さん、娘さんちょっとかわいいっすよ～　＾Ｏ＾

そこでスゴク暑くて、彼女って苦しいような手伝いたいってさ～　（笑）

盆踊りのアナウンサ

～以上～

男性の夏のおしゃれ～

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 16:17:50 GMT

夏また来た～　夏と言うのはやっぱり暑いだろ

んで最近東京の夏の温度はちょっと暑い過ぎるだよね～

ま～別に夏だからおしゃれしたいんだけど。。。

夏と冬何となく、良いおしゃれ時間かなと思って～新しい商品もいっぱい発売中し～

さてさて～
今回夏のおしゃれ商品は　：

①香水ＣＫＩＮ２Ｕ Him
俺はもう高校時代からＣＫ香水よく使ってるん、だからＣＫ最近の発売香水を使って見たいなと思う～

②バーバリー財布
前の財布もう古くて汚いので、新しい欲しいな～と思って
でどんな財布良いかな～色々な良い財布たくさんあるし
男性の財布って形がだいたい同じぐらいなので、どんなブランド良いかな、
また友人に聞いた「バーバリーってば良いよ、俺このブランド好き何だけどさ」
んでまたバーバリー商品を見て、あ～本当だ良いデサインし、何か商品も高級レベル、
お値段はともかくですけど、でもそんなにお金をかかちゃってはないっすよ

③シャツ
ＵＮＩＱＬＯ最高だ！安くてデサインも良いし！セルの時いっぱい買ったんだ！

④携帯電話
これ別に必要じゃないっすけど。。。でも本当にＰ９０４ｉが欲しいな～
わけと言うのはまったくないっすけど、でもやっぱり新しい使い方や二つ番号やメール持ってるいいなと思ってるので、買っちゃった！

その理由で今から2週間ぐらい生活が苦しくなるかもしれない～
カードからお金が借りれるだけど、ちょっと怖いっすね！
自分のせいだから我慢しなきゃ～～～～～

Starry Rain。。。

Sat, 14 Jul 2007 14:23:35 GMT

For some quite time i dun have mood in blogging... and became blog reader....

there some ブログ that i read everyday... like 大人気Dannychooーさんブログ and some of my friendｓブログ

and funny things happen, because long enuf i havent do any blogging... rightnow i kinda confused how i should write this blog ... lol 俺って下手糞な～　ＴＴ＿ＴＴ

As usual days passing to fast... there so many left over need to finish, like

Slypheed . Sangokushitaisen haven't got any updated for quite sometime...

I realize somehow i lack of dedication... but thats me, somehow i cant work if i dun have 100% mood (whole hearted) when doing something... so i feel better doing it later than doing it now with 50% mood... since the result will be really different... but i know later when i start my carrier i have to change this kind of bad habit...

まず夏休み really close!!! 本当に楽しみします～

ま～甘いものと言うと多分あんまりないかな～

でも今は夢が一つあるかな～　花火デートだ！

けど彼女ってさ～まだ僕の恋人じゃないから。。。そんなに夢見たいデート多分ないな～

でもやっぱり彼女と会ったら素敵な浴衣を着て、それは嬉しいもんだ

さてさて～

今週いろいろ事準備してたけどさ～雨のせいでたくさんやりたい事をできなくなった。。。

タック！今週って一週間雨ばかりだ。。。

今日も実は予定があるだって。。。けど朝からそんな大雨もん、本当に面倒くさいね～

しょうがないから、ダウンロードもの（ドラマやアニメなど）見たもんだ～

明日晴れるように！！　（晴れる多分無理、ならば曇りもいいんだ～）

神様～お願いします～

初めて、このブログで半分ぐらい日本語で書いたんだ～　。。。　英語ブログはずなのにですけど　＾＾；；

いくらぐらい間違い文法あるかな～　聞きたくないっす！！！

Back to 英語～

体力下げる。。。。風邪を引いてた

Mon, 21 May 2007 15:15:56 GMT

30K HITS+ .... well i have been ignoring this ブログ for quite some time, so where those HIT came from ? its from Dragoon V.M. ... seems lots people grabing Official Square Enix wallpaper

Anyway been BACKingUP HDD since yesterday... another DVD-RAM used, its not urgent file that need to be verified... but the content i want to save often changed, so DVD-RAM is the best solution ... with its avg 10.000x writing capability its really convinients for home user (since DVD-RAM structure is similar to tape that dedicated for enterprise)

going to get more DVD-RAM later next month...

speaking of backing up... before i only need around 50CDR to backup data/year on 2003 - 2004

but now since 2006, i already using around 50DVDR to backup data

by next year i should grab blue-ray / HD-DVD room to save space from massive "laser plate"

Somehow OOT ... since last saturday night, i feel kinda not health, then i tried to get lots rest, but somehow unsuccessful...

and its getting worst, well actually i can go to school today, but i am afraid its getting worst, so i decide to take rest today...

somehow its getting better by now....

And just want to inform, Slypheed and SangokushiTaisen is updated!

Some file will be removed soon to be replaced with new file, especially drama stuff, since they really taking space...

so for everyone downloading the file, make sure u finish ur download quick!

ニキビだって～

Sun, 08 Apr 2007 17:41:38 GMT

Forgot to upload the .reg files to remove the desktop shortcut arrows, i will add the link as soon as i finish this entry

Somehow the acne problem lately havent getting better just like 2 months ago.... while this kinda bothering me with my activities (somehow makes my mood kinda messed when i got an event with my friends, especially if with girls related and thats why lately i prefer to go out with male friends rather asking out my female friends to go out)

While i got this problem, its also makes me learns lots stuff... starting with acne related information that i seek on the .NET to dermathology and facial related, actually i aint metrosexual guy... i just want to get rid acne on my face, which unfortunately my country friends that i know dun have acne problem anymore around at my age which is 23 (soon 24) ...

Since i getting big cyst (big red acne) few months ago, i panic-ed and doings lots silly things, like trying multiple available acne treatment which resulting my skin getting more irritated rather than cured... since my acne getting worst, which i think no longer i can solve this acne problem by myself, so i seek nearest dermatology for help, from that derm give me minomicyn 50mg (antibiotics drugs) that i have to take 2x a day and topical skin gel that i need to put on infected spot ... then after 2 weeks the so called initial breakout occurs, which i already predict, that time i hope after the initial breakout the next breakout will be greatly minimize, but after 3 weeks i still get same breakout, its like when a acne cured another breakout will pop on other spot ... that time i still thinking giving more time to this treament and see how it will going, then after 5 weeks or so, its reduce overal breakout but somehow it makes my lips so dry and the red spot that caused by previous acne somehow still stay, so i am asking how to get rid those blemish faster, then the derm advice me to get peeling through facial that i have done once per week, ok that sounds good enuf, then i follow her suggestion and start the facial which cost me 8000円 / course (which is expensive enuf for me, since that time i still dun have parttime job and the money have is from my parents and sadly i dun come from rich family which can give the money how much i need) ... after 2x facial treatment and keep continuing that derm treatment, my face skin a bit improved, but somehow i dun think it worth the price i paid, so i decide to stop it... since because i dun find major improvement in facial treatment (well yeah i know there is nothing fast in curing this type of dissease, which actually no cure for acne) also a bit worried about the antibiotics drugs i take, from some message boards on .NET that i read, that antibiotics have lots side effects that worried me more than acne (like losing hair, hyperpigmentation, headache etc)

After that i doing some searching and found out Benzoyl Peroxide working good on acne, well actually i am using Benzoyl Peroxide spot treatment before, and yeah it reduce breakout and heal acne faster, if i think again maybe because i am slacking off from BP (i have been around 2 months not using BP since i dun have breakout) until now even i aint really sure what makes my acne breakout worst, but i think i know a bit about it...

So i order some BP gel online, then use it until now for about 2 weeks... the result is somehow it reduce red spot quite nice and heal acne faster, but i still get breakout and really dry my skin (well as we know BP really dry our skin)... because of that dryness i am thinking opposite way on curing acne

Back 3 months ago when i dun BP i get any breakout ... so right now i am thinking natural cure is lots better than topical treatment that harsh the skin so bad... but for now i am giving abit more time to this BP treatment, as i reducing the quantity /per use....

After some reading and thinking, i guess thats lots link between our life to acne...

lately my sleep time really messed .... which i believe this also causing my acne get worst, also i remember before i got my breakout back few months ago, i got insomia for few weeks and the i got the breakout... so starting from tomorrow i need to set my routine back....

after i got my acne getting worst, i getting stressed by myself, rather enjoying holiday, i spent lots time thinking about my acne problem, even when i go out with my friends, while i believe this also makes my acne not getting any better, but somehow i dun have way to solve this problem either, i know the solve is beneath ourself, but ignoring the problem that i have isnt me, since i always face the problem before i go on....

About food we eat, lots people that we should care about food we eat, reduce as much as possible for oily foods and sweets especially chocolate, for this i dun think that the food causing acne, back few months ago i eating McD almost everyday but i dun get breakout as now, well my face a bit more oil though, so i believe the food indeed improve our skin health since of course healthy food is good for our health.... but i dun think that the food we eat have major effect to the acne....

And about the treatment, i somehow agree about natural treatment rather that harsh treatment, this BP is good, but somehow is really harsh the skin, if we think the basic, how we can cured if we harsh with our own body, we need to take care our body neatly so it can cure, right ? just like when we get cold, we need to take good rest and food and it will be cured in no time.... so i am thinking to using more natural product, vitamin stuff starting next week....lets see how it go... and of course i am planning to go back to my previous regime that prevent breakout....

バレンタインイヴ

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 14:23:32 GMT

this year kinda special... i write Valentine title under life-ism category LOL

so how everyone Valentine hopefully great !

some people might think that Valentine is another usual day,

but for me special day is special day.... you can love the person you love everyday, but how about show it more on those special days, it make life more colorful isnt it ? .... if you think that, it is just same if we schedule great event for our darling on scheduled date isnt it ?

Well if your thinking like that, its yours i wont try argue with your opinion, but for me, on Special day, if you do something great or beautiful for ur darling, i believe ur darling will precious it more than you do something great on usual day/date.

And for everyone that still single ... well i do ^^; lets find our love ^^ .... True Love Never Runs Smooth... which means u can easily get True Love without try hard finding it, right ?

How this year chocolate... well get some from classmates... well thats nothing special since some of my classmate give those chocolate to all classmates, just to celebrate the day (since like i wrote on previous entry, i cancel all schedule) i give chocolate to close friend, クマと金, as they give chocolate to me either... then at the end of today class... our sensei (山中先生） give her handmade brownies to all of us .... 先生ありがとう、ケーキをおいしかった、ご馳走様でした～

after that... nothing goes special... but i found out funny things today.... yesterday from horoscope newsletter, i read that maybe tomorrow (today) i got visit from far friend .... and its true! today a friend that from 韓国 coming to Japan! before he used to study on same school, but last year he back to his country for good. But somehow i didnt meet him, since i was on afternoon nap (somehow really sleepy today) .... well to bad ^o^;;

then about the weather.... why its raining on valentine day ? ... somehow its like sign that all single person crying LOL

well maybe on other country its not a problem... but in japan, that majorly people use walk+train to go, it is really bothering isnt it ?

i bet お台場 that has to be crowded is not really crowded because the rain ^^;

anyway this my current hair kinda long enuf and start to bother me.... (maybe this the reason i got acne breakout recently too) ....

planned to cut it by late next month! .... hmmm what style i should cut my hair ? ....

St. Valentine

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 15:39:08 GMT

this year St. Valentine coming in few minutes... well tomorrow might nothing special.... the reason i cancel all plan+schedule i make LOL

what happen might not big deal for some person, but somehow this things really bother me....

want to know what make me cancel those romantic stuff ?

its all because the acne breakouts.... since last week.... last week only 1 big break out, then several days that 'white heads' show up and like usual i cant resist to zits them out .... and the result, the acne getting worst and i got lots breakout near that area >.<

Well my face not a clean type... i already got acne since 3rd grade of my junior highschool... got worst on my university time.... and getting better nowdays

yeah thanks to my parents heritage for this acne problem -_-.... but gladly my acne problem is not really worst ... usually i only get one or two breakout once a month ... but due this acne problem, my face skin not as smooth as people that dun affected with acne problem ....

I dunno what make this breakouts.... since last few month, i havent got any single breakout on my face...

and because of it i think why this happen ... and most important, it happen before the valentine LOL!

when i review the food i eat, there nothing goes wrong... i didnt eat shrimp lately (somehow i kinda allergy with shrimp, usually everytime i eat shrimp i always get some breakouts) then i conclude my thinking in severals point :

1. GOD sign .... either good or not, GOD give the sign to let me took another path....

2. Lack of Sleep lately... dunno why but like i ever mention on my previous entry, lately i got problem in sleepin' at night...

3. Think to much about 彼女 ... well lots people if we think to much about a person we get acne because of it, maybe at the beginning u can said that just old words... but when u think over... it goes like this, think to much make u stress and stress can make acne right ?

4. My body changing.... another hormonal change ?

5. Lifestyle

With so many point.... then i pick Lifestyle as primary point... and need to be take care soon ...

well as you can see teenager, life freely, eat anything they like, well i do like that... i eat what i want... even i often eat those junk food.... almost everyday lol ...

not only food... but drink too, a day usually i only drink around 0.5lt water... and that is not pure water, usually softdrink or beverage drink .... i can say, lately i almost not drink pure water...

realizing those bad things... thats why start from 3 days ago, i tried to change the way live .... especially for things i eat and drink....

the easy way of course drinking lots water, since like everybody know, our body need water at least 10glass of water/day then the food too... i try to eat more fruits and greens, and then for around to 2days i am eating fish... yeah fish.... i dun really like fish, because they smell and when eating them we have to take care their bones which i think bothering enuf .... but somehow i getting like to fish for no reason.... the fish i eat lately dun have bad smell... and they taste really good! and another good point is i learn how to eat fish in beautiful way.... u know japanese people can eat fish beautifully, leaving the bones un-screwed.... well i still cant do that good... but at least i learn how to ^-^

then i dunno how long i can maintain this good lifestyle... since usually when the problem over... then i often get lazy to care the problem either lol....

at the end .... i might not enjoying the beautiful St. Valentine this year.... but i learn something precious, which i think it have lots more benefits hahahah ^O^

well for other people have great Valentine Day ....

On anoher note... i failed the 専門学校の試験 too... thats mean this year i have to continue studying 日本語... well its not bad things

since either study hard or without it, my japanese skill rising by itself... because in the class want or not, i am forced to learn what currently the teacher teach us ....

first time i test i got 22点, which i could say i dunno lots 漢字 and 文法, i do learn about 日本語 2days before test...

but last time i got 40点ぐらい which a bit rising .... and this time i didnt learn or prepare for the test ^O^　which it means my skill rising by itself ....

To speak the truth its my another bad point... i tends to go with the flow for everything, since soon or late, with good result or ギリギリ合格 usually i got what i want, maybe i got good luck.... but i cant rely on my luck forever aint i ? ... well i will try to change that habit too this year .... hopefully i can do it ^o^;;

- OVER SOUND -

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 18:23:59 GMT

since i am living in japan.... there is few times i over heard other people converstation...

at that time i am not planning to heard what other people talk, but somehow oversea people, tends to talk freely with their own language (US/AUS . chinese . korean) maybe because they tough, people in that area all japanese and no one will understand what they talk or its the way they talk....

well yeah some japanese also talk in big sound too... even sometimes i did it either, when i talk with my friends....

but dunno why, people that having converstation using english always interest me, so in the end, i end up listening some part of what they chat...

then here some story i experience ...

first during last year summer break ...

i am alone working my summer homework in starbucks ikebukuro (my favorite place) .... in there a chinese born us (seems like that) having converstation with japanese guy.... that japanese guy just come back from australia, dunno why but that girl giving more question + speak more than the guy .... and they guy tends to answer it and reply with short question or short quote... the funny things is how the girl brought the converstation... its begin with how the trip going... then about the guy, the girl said she know the guy for short time but feel like already long time know (seems this girl really interested in the guy?) ... then after half an hour the topic goes to hair stuff.... LOL well actually its no weird, since when having good converstation, every single things can be interesting topic to talk... but since i listening their converstation since the beginning somehow its kinda funny... how the topic changed so much ....

then on christmast eve....

like i ever mention, i am having little tour around tokyo on christmast eve

then that time i was waiting my friend, that went to toilet ... while i was waiting on outside train station (the place on shibuya that in-famous, that usually people use that place as meeting place) then there is a girl coming and standing... seems she waiting for her friend since when standing she check her mobile... and suddenly a kinda fat man coming and say hi... at first time i thought that man is the person that the girl waiting for ... but when i over heard their converstation then i know the fact.... the fat man begin the conversation with do you having good time ? ... then he continue by introduce himself... that he came from hawaii bla bla bla.... lots question from the fat man... and somehow the girl reply that fat man question .... i kinda suprised how people can start converstation that easily.... having converstation with unknown people (especially for girls) kinda feels uneasy right ? at least i think that way, but maybe because i dun have strong self confidence ... and maybe that how western people having socialize, and thats why lots japanese people interesting in us/uk? (i dunno for sure)

what i think (also i believe, for lots people), if a people start conversation with unknown person, then there is reason behind the conversation....

then if the conversation start to opposite gender... then its big chance that the person start converstation attracted to the person they start converstation and want to know more about that person....

then with that reason, especially girls usually feel uneasy feeling right ? .... i dunno for sure... but i as a guy when talking to other unknown person by suddenly sometimes got that feeling too

not long after that my friend back from toilet... and i ask her opinion about that matter... well she got same thinking as me too.... for her, dun matter how cool that person, unknown person is unknown person and should be treated as caution as possible LOL....

but if i remember my past... there is a time when i am on "so called" - Hypher Mode - ... there is a girl caught my attention... without any thinking... i straight directly ask her name and introduce myself.... somehow i got her name and phone number in one day....

u know what ? .... then on night i call her and ask her to be my gf .... really crazy things... but somehow what i done catch that girl heart.... the bad things is at that time there is a person that more precious in my heart .... so somehow i feeling guilty doing that stuff....

the third time is happen a few weeks ago...

i just got back from meeting my friend, actually my stocmach still full because i wat i eat on the cafe.... but dinner is dinner... then i eat at ootoya sugamo....

because i often enuf go to that 店, some waiter seems already know me and know the seat i like (i like seat in personal table, the reason is i dun need to worry disturbing other people) so usually i get the seat in personal table... then beside me yet another australian guy talking to japanese girl ....

this time that australian guy talking so much while the girl try hard to reply what the guy speak .... i dunno whether that guy really like about politics or he learn about politics.... but at that time in my mind 「WTF, why u talking those boring stuff .... do u want to be viewed as smart guy? geez...」

that guy is talking about racism that japanese goverment done.... that kinda blocking oversea people working in japan... etc etc....

i dun thing that good topic to talk about in dinner time .... more easy/daily stuff should be better arent they ?

but maybe they both have same interest in politics ? well i dun know that much.... but i found interesting things, if my ears serve me well, that girl answer that guy question with japanese intonation ? .... like 「i dont think that bad thingさ～」　「its like thatねぇ～」　LOL

on those time, is the time i feel 外国語 important.... but for me, is enuf as long i understand how to speak.listen.read ...

i am not a type of person that want to master a subject as great as possible....

時間が足りないよ！。。。ほかのことまだたくさん勉強していないからさ～

とにかく、明日って予定があるですが、何かすまらない。。。

ニキビシミまだ直ったし、新しいニキビもできた　＞。＜　ニキビをクソオオオ　（多分、最近、彼女のこと考え過ぎた？。。。会いたいな～）

多分部屋でのんびりして、漢字を練習したのほうがかも。。。。

定め。。。

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 17:02:40 GMT

能力試験　二級の結果を一昨日でもらった。。。やっぱり俺の日本語力まだ下手なって～

けど、何かあまりがっかりな～今まで二級の問題まだ勉強していないし、日本語を１年しか勉強しているので。。。

もっと時間かかるなら、日本語を上手くになると思う　＾O＾

だから、そんな心配はないす～

when seeing the result and hearing the advice from my teacher... theres nothing that make me feel down about it (maybe i am to free minded)

the vocab part goes really bad, but thats because that time when i do the test, i didnt mention the time carefully so that part end up with lots questions remain un-answered.... then like i already predict, so far i got no problem with listening test.... even with my current score i already pass the listening test ....

then the grammar test... well this should be the hardest test... and yeah i still need to improve or train my 日本語文法 skill...

since the result is bad enuf... then i wont write up the test 点 / result ... but i need to rise my point around 50点 to pass 能力試験　二級

with the way i study, which i never study or practice after school .... plus the school havent start 能力試験　二級（after 冬休み, we currently studying 中級, its a level a step before 二級, we can say it 二級 introduction) well i dun feel down yet i dun feel proud with the result either ... i might can pass that 二級 if i work hard studying ... but if i can do that.... maybe i am 100 times better person LOL

But somehow, i kinda worried about my next 専門学校試験 on next monday.... i might failed that test too ....

Speaking about 日本, like we know, lots 日本人 really like US＆EU people for some reason.... i dunno why i got this thinking on my mind right now, maybe because the TV proggram i just watch now .... if i realize myself, maybe every person always see for better aspect ...

in this term, 日本人 tends to see that US/EU is better country than　日本？ or maybe US/EU 習慣 interest 日本人？

the funny is lots people that on other country, especially US like 日本....

then somehow i end up with simple thinking ... lots people is bored with their current lifestyle and seek new experience.... thats why other country is so fascinating ....

then how about me ? ... well for me of course 日本 is great country, compared to other country including my home country ... in any case, i think i am on same group of people that seeking for new experience... seeking better place ....

before i forget... there is 2 entry i need to complete... i might continue writing them tomorrow, if i have mood...

Heavenly High ⇔ Hellish Deep

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 18:24:33 GMT

Another absent from blogging... the reason is always same... somehow i didnt find good time for blogging....

but today, even already late (2:00am by the time i start writing this entry) i really want to write this entry ...

Back to last year, beginning of fall season... i start playing 三国志大戦 ... i should blame Nivek and Sek, because at that time i meet them, we go to 秋葉原ゲームセンター and i found out that 三国志大戦 is not usual card game.... rather its ARCADE Trading Card ゲーム .... Before i already interested on those card game, because it using 3 Kingdoms background and the card arts somehow beautiful, especially Girls general card.... so thats why i try out ....

Because the game interesting (well every game interesting, but for this game, i decide to continue, even i know i will spend some money in this game) ... after that i searching for nearest ゲームセンター that have 三国志大戦2 (since 秋葉原 to far from my place)... and i found out its in 池袋

since that i often go to 池袋 - ADORESゲームセンター .... from that, i learn many things... starting the card prices ... card shop .... infamous player (my favorite great 三国志大戦 player fan114, since first time i see his game replay) well the point is i learn many things that have relation to 三国志大戦

Gosh... this will be another long entry.... because the story what i want to write is begin now ....

After a while playing 三国志大戦2 (Since by the time i play its version no longer 1 ... but 2) .... i moved from ADORESゲームセンター to 池袋GIGOゲームセンター .... the reason... they have more 三国志大戦2 table (ADORES 4 tables while GIGO 8 tables) then after that around クリスマス .... suddenly a girl that work in GIGOゲームセンター caught my attention.... before i never see her (maybe she works other day than weekends ... since i often came for play on weekends) ... i dunno since when ... but i really want to know her ... but there lots in my minds.... for me its just not easy things to do ...

sometimes if i think about it, i should dun care much about other things... just go and ask her something and see the proggress ....

Then after new year... 1月５日 if my memory serve me well ... i go to 明治神宮 alone (reason and other stuff i already wrote on previous entry) .... then after i finish things that i have to do in 明治神宮 ... i go to 池袋GIGO to play 三国志大戦2 .... and somehow, there is a time that only me and her in bar area (池袋GIGO have little bar that sell softdrink) ... i believe that time is a chance that a chance that if i dun take it, it wont come anymore even i wait 100years ... then i ask her about バイト ... why i ask her about that ? .... actually i am really looking for バイト but since due my schedule and visa kinda limit my アルバイト activity, i prefer to go on with the flow, if i can get バイト i will do it if not, well thats not problem ....

※ What the stupid things is .... she already explain me about バイトのこと like phone number that i have to call ... then what i have to bring etc... but until now, i have contact that 池袋GIGO - バイト department.... ＿|￣|O !|!|!|!

Then because 三国志大戦2 got バージョンアップ now ver.2.1 .... lots new card released ... which really expensive (usual things)...

like LE 劉備 avg price 1万５千円 .... can reach 2万円 on YHJ (YahooAuctionJapan)

for this 2 weeks i often go to 池袋GIGO to play it .... last week i dun see her, i thought she change her work time or something like that... well i came for play not for meeting her ^o^

then ... yesteday 2月3日 she is on GIGOゲームセンター working (well i dun care much about her working schedule, either have routine or not).... then because the queue long enuf (each game need wait around 15 minutes to get ur turn) i saw she talking to a good looking guy... well at that time i thought maybe her 彼 ... well cute girls should be with cool guys ... well it makes great couple imo ^o^ ....

Actually that time i want to say sorry i havent make phone call for バイト stuff... but because some reason ... i only smile when i see her lol ... and she just smile either (that angelic smile～）...

Then i dunno how i could know it, but i know it (my feeling always sharp ^o^) ... she told the guy about me... i dunno what she said but i am sure she told him that i am a 留学生 ... and the guy suddenly came aftering his friend that was in beginning of battle .... then the funny start... his friend slowly move his head looking to me ... LOL ... then because i saw him too... then he fastly move his head back.... then they talking about things which i cant hear ....

At that time even its didnt mean anything .... but somehow it makes me happy .... a girl that currently i interest mention me to other people....

then the story of that day end ... ※神奈川友達へ、意見をありがとう～けど、僕なら、そうなことダメだと思う　＞。＜僕って下手糞だね　＿|￣|O !|!|!|!

This day because several reason (actually i planning to have good sleep day) i go to 池袋 again..... then of course i wont miss my time to play 三国志大戦2 in GIGO .... today is really bad bad day! either Great FAN114デッキ (sorry for using ur great デッキ and lose m(_ _)m ) or 蜀槍兵デッキ that i create werent worked beating the enemy for some reason .... total 6loses 2 win....

but it seems it i still lack of experience too...

then i see FAN114 name on one of screen.... and u know what ... that guy is the one that talking to the girl　yesterday .... no.1 三国志大戦2 プレーヤー in 日本mention my present... lol its not like that... its like a 留学生 that might dun know much about 日本語 play a japanese game that some people might think difficulty in playing the game occurs ..... but somehow i feel kinda honored? LOL

then I watch his game play for few times.... さすがFAN114様 either on general control or 1vs1 battle, everything really great... whats makes me kinda fans him is, beside his 三国志大戦 skill .... he is also cool guy ! ... its not like i imagine... a typical 日本人Gamer ....

then at same time, i learn lots infamous / top rank 三国志大戦 player gathering in 池袋GIGO like アシミニ-さん　（i believe i meet アシミニ-さん more than once) 全武将が○○ (2SR カード in one day ... what a great luck!) and オズマソウジ (fan114 close friend?)

i hope next i can know you guys and learn more about 三国志大戦

lose to much today 次は頑張ります～　

ahh... about the title i write.... yesterday even nothing special, what happen just make me happy somehow .... and today even nothing goes wrong because loses so many somehow i kinda feel bad ....

とにかく、みんなーさん、先週で夜の空に見ないか？最近月はスゴイきれい！星もたくさん出て来たよ～　

朝の風月・ Morning Breeze～

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 23:23:52 GMT

lately for about 1 week, i dunno why, each whole day i feel just like in the morning ...

this weird feeling not happen for first time, actually i already experience this kind of feeling in past years...

its not bad things rather i think its really good things, that somehow keep my spirits up whole day, enjoying all things that happen, its just like the feeling when u walk in the morning (without sleepy feeling of course).

i dunno why this kind of feeling sometimes happen ... but somehow i hope i can get this kind of feeling more often or for now, it stay like this for a bit longer ^^ ... if i think a bit about these feeling, it maybe because the winter season that make the weather cold thus make subconcious mind things just like in the morning ... the for about 2 weeks the weather is sooo great! everyday is sunny day! bright sky with some grasp of cloud... i love this weather sooooo much!... and the other things is.... nevermind ^-^.

While what i wrote above is good things, now the bad part... lately i got several bad dreams (bad sign?) ... kinda scary one, i cant remember the detail tough... since when i wake up i even forget what kind of event i got, but i just remember that is bad dreams... actually today it happen again too....

the funny things is (even i cant remember the detail, but at least i remember the overall image each bad dream i experienced) every bad dream always have different scene and event ... are some meaning / signs are within my dreams ? ...

From zodiac newletter that i read few days ago, told me that i might got some vision, so if u can describe ur vision, write down and u will understand it later.... is that vision means the bad dreams i experienced? .... well i actually i dun care much .... hopefully not really worst things happen, well so far i already make preparation for bad things that might happen, although i cant make preparation for unexpected things... but i hope whatever bad things happen soon not really bad... moreover i hope no bad things at all... its just dreams ^O^

Today awake at 3am because small earthquake that happen ... trying to back sleep and got those bad dreams....

hum.... and lately somehow i realize i am too carefree... lots things i have to do... yet no mood to do it... so every days just end with un-done schedule ....

its seems had been started since this new year... ie. new year postcard that i had to send to some people, end up un-sent, even a single postcard .... well i believe it really to late if i send them now, arent they? ^^;

Then again now some job that i had really to do, until now i still havent do it... some of them are :

>/ re-clean up room <christmas eve already over... i need to put back those christmas decoration and use it again next year>

>/ little things and that...

>/ 漢字練習 ... 専門学校 getting near and my 漢字 skill aint improved so much.... at this point i wont pass the exams ＿|￣|O doh...

Maybe that dreams sign of this un-completed task / schedule ?

speaking of un-completed task... the mission i had to done in past 2 weeks, remains un-cleared... while its feel really hard to do that mission, but whatever happen i hope i can complete it by weekend of this week....

ups already 08:30am .... will update later in evening ....

included 2 new entries that i want to write ^-^

冬休み　最後の日

Mon, 08 Jan 2007 02:22:07 GMT

2 weeks already passed... if i remember back in this winter break, i waste around 3 days worth doing nothing... just watching tv or do some chatting on net and then sleep ... well thats not like i dun do that on other days, but on other days usually i do stuff more worthed (at least myself think like that) than just relaxing... and waste lots of hours sleeping ....

i dunno its because the season/weather or just my mood... but its make me hard to move from bed in the morning... the soft of pillow at the same time weather is cool enuf to make those pillow keep comfortable .... its sooo unresistable to keep staying in bed LOL

anyway, few days ago i go to 明治神宮 (Meiji Jingu, is one of famous Ginga in 東京 area, beside 浅草) alone ... well i think going there alone lots better than going with friends... since i can peacefully praying beside those place not place for playing around, thats not recreation park, well tourist can say that but not me... then i go praying and write some wishes on "wish board" for this year (i dunno what i should call for these item, but u should know u buy little wood board and in that board u write ur wish and hang it), after that i go bought 合格お守り, well dunno if this charm works or not, but somehow i feel i need it ^-^ in some ways ....

and at the end, just for fun, i go to get おくじ .... while i can read some part of what written and extract some meaning ... but i dun understand what that くじ meaning at all ! ... so i ask paper-kun help for translate it, even with his high level of 日本語 can describe the meaning really well (i guess i will have to ask my teacher tomorrow)... but at least he grab the overall meaning, he said its something like 「When a will there will always a path」

If the meaning like that, well somehow it linked to my resolution really well... somehow until i realize as a person i still lack of confident and will... well even i tried to change that, but i guess i will need to work hard to change it as much as possible ...

the problem why its hard is, when u dun have confident in doing something then the will to do it will also disappear/decreased ...

Then how i can solve this personal problem.... actually i dunno for sure... since even i tried so hard, i never have confident like some people had...

and then few days ago i read this from zodiac horoscope daily sight newsletter :

Afraid of how a dear one might take some new developments? Take several deep breaths, then figure out the most opportune time to approach them. You may be frightened at first, but once you start talking, you'll be fine.

At first i kinda dun get the meaning, but then there is a 'event' few days ago that push me to take action, at that time i dunno its just coincidence or not, but somehow it really push me to do what i want or i will miss the chance....

its just like what written above, if i can start it, its not that hard like i imagine.... despite other stuff, ie whether i can get what i want or not

From there i figure out Why the beginning so hard for me,

first i lack of confident, so i prefer stay passive and do wait & see... if nothing happen from other side, then i wont do nothing... that what i usually do

second as a person under cancer zodiac (i dunno whether other people under same cancer zodiac have this same personality or not) but i am kinda affraid of rejection ... so yeah thats why i prefer stay and wait, until i see good chance coming...

But now i learn stay passive and do wait & see not really good in term of chances and time... so for this year i will try keep become more active and always try to grab the chances that available even the possibility of success rate is below 10% ....

speaking of these things... today i have a mission to accomplish... well actually i planning to do it yesterday, but again i totally dun have confident yesterday....

actually today too... but nothing will change if i keep stay ... thats what i think ^-^ ... so hopefully i can accomplish today....

※ update : i cancel today mission, due several reason... でも～俺ってさいてな＿|￣|O 。。。ま～しょがないじゃん、ほかの日があるから　＾Ｏ＾　がんばります～！

日本のＥ－財布

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 11:49:19 GMT

I should take more money for 3 days preparation.... but now all i have is 1000円 in my wallet...

since its still New Year Holiday, neither Bank or ATM is on service and ATM can be used again on ４日 ... so there is 1 day left with 1000円

learning from this problem, i start reading about bank services especially クレジットカード (Visa・MasterCard・JCB その他) & Ｅ－財布 (Edy・DCMX）....

i figure out most of Japan Bank give クレジットカード service with really little fees, around (500円/年 if i dun miss read, it even can be free if u use ur creditcard at certain amount of usage） even some of them give the for free of charge, but of course using クレジットカード means there is taxes for the amount money we use.

But i am planning to create it soon, within this month ... i am thinking to go with 「ビュー・スイカ」ＶＩＳＡカード or みずほ銀行ビュー・スイカＶＩＳＡカード ...

its seems no big different between 2 of card, well here cons and prons from what i read so far (i havent read finish read them all、漢字 arghhhh >.<)

「ビュー・スイカ」ＶＩＳＡカード :

+>/ The point that u accumulate can be exchanged with JR東日本 point exchange, the nice is u can exchange the point for Train ticket, which i often use it.

+>/ It will automatically replace ur スイカ・カード (if you own it).

O>/ The amount of money u can use /month seems arround １０万円～５０万円 (not really sure ^-^;)

->/ While i still need to read about how to pay money i used ... but it seems that it will automatically taken from registered bank account.

みずほ銀行ビュー・スイカＶＩＳＡカード :

O>/ The point that u accumulate exchanged with みずほ銀行 point exchange

+>/ Seems everything easier if u have account at みずほ銀行, since it will automatically replace ur ICカード　and that mean all payment from ur credit card taken from ur bank account.

O>/ The amount of money u can use /month is same (seems every bank give loan at average balance) but if i dun wrong みずほ銀行 set ５０万円 for every new registered user, and if user want higher or lower the loan, u can ask the bank teller, the lowest will be １０万円

Why i planning to apply credit card with View Suica attached ?

View Suica is new system that implanted in 日本駅 late last year (Oct 2006) ... while the preview version of Suica card need to touch it to the Suica Scanner, this brand new View Suica card remove the needed to touch the Suica Scanner, so in 駅 you can just bypass the ticket locket. Other than that it possible to link View Suica to モバイル・スイカ .... In Mobile Suica, you can check ur Suica credits and u can use ur Mobile (ケータイ） in replacement of ur Suica Card ...

Like i often said, i am no good at explainin' things... for 日本人 or people that can read 日本語, please refer to the site below for information :

>･　ビュー・スイカ　サイト

>･　みずほ Suica カード

And of E-財布 i didnt find any problem, well i register for 「Edy」 via my ケータイ, the process complete instantly without any complex procedure!

i didnt register for other E-財布 ie. DCMX (u can register via DCMX site or via mail, for student, you need to go to docomo counter and register there) ....

but for 「Edy」 here the step for registration :

<1> from i-Appli リスト start 電子マネー「Edy」

※ make sure u unlock ur IC Card first, since u can active the software if ur IC Card locked, to unlock go to Settings > Lock/Security > IC Card Unlock

<2> from here just keep choosing Agree 「同意する」 ... until it complete ... well u should read the terms and regulations, but like usual it full of usual stuff for security purpose only.

<3> Ok u get ur 「Edy」 account (number) .... so the next things is charge ur 「Edy」 ...　u can do it at nearest コンビニ (AM/PM・サンクス・ＧＥＯ), just give ur ケータイ to the shop waiter and say 「チャージお願いします」 .... or u can charge urself at 「Edy」 Charger Machine

The only things left is the minimum money required for each times charge, hopefully it possible to charge less than 10万円 .... otherwise i wont think it convinient enuf to use.

2007年　Resolution 「Ride on Time」

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 09:44:43 GMT

Dunno why, but maybe this year is totally different than previous year...

while previous year i always with my family and my old friends ... having little BBQ party at my home

while we having BBQ party, i and my old friend (around 4 people, it always like that) always speaking about stupid things especially old days when we still little and what stupid things happen that time... (※ We always in same school since kindegarden ... so yeah our friendship is more like brothers)

Even what we speak maybe nothing important alas nonsense things, but we always enjoy that New Year Celebration....

if i dun wrong, we already doing it for about 5 years.... but this year sorry guys, i can't be with you....

BBQ ... chatting... playing games ... etc etc until the New Year Sun rise.... with lots of cups of coffee that help us stay awake ^-^

In the morning... after the party over, cleaning up... fast cleaning... and then sleep ....

so when i decide my resolution ? .... well when i talk to my old friends, we share each other vision of what we do in next year ... at that time i make my resolution too... well maybe new year resolution already planned far before the end of year, am i right ?

i dunno what kind of life u guys lead, but for me that i always plan and predict, ofcourse i already plan what things i want to accomplish next year ...

While this year, i share vision on net... chatting with my friends...

this morning i found really peaceful moment... alone.... thinking what resolution i really should grab

so here the resolution :

7> Buy PS3 & Wii ? ... well actually i dun mood playin' PS3 on my current TV... thats why i place it in bottom resolution, that i dun think i need accomplish

6> Using time more and more efficient ... this always in my new year resolution ^-^; ... moreover currently i feel time is lots faster than what accomplish, so i need to adapt it quickly.

5> 日本専門学校を合格 ... hopefully i can ... if not i will need to take another 1 year ....

4> 日本語の勉強もっとまじめ ... well i aint good at studying.... no matter what, i totally dun have spirit to study ....

3> 恋人がいるように ... well its still hard to predict... but if my prediction didnt go to the worst.... this year valentine should awesome ^-^

2> お金の使い方もっと気をつける ... rather than having fun only, have to start thingking about the future ....

1> The most important things that need to accomplish this year... 自分自身もっと強くなるように... somehow until now i kinda dun have self confidence, but this year i will change it, 僕ならできると思う～！

i think only 7 things.... for this year resolution... if u asking whether a resolution is really needed or not ?

actually its just because as human in ur life, u need goal to accomplish, and with time keep running, whether u want it or not, u have to follow it no matter what.... u can't just stand still and do nothing, even at the end maybe u will end as same person, but in this life, u need to do ur best, arent ?

believe or not is i already prepare 2008 Resolution, some of it is :

1> move to アパート for stay about 3 years

2> New personal project started ... it will personal CGmovie project

3> and saves from 2007 will be used for stuff in new アパート

the worst things is, on this new day of new year (２００７年１月１日） somehow i already awake late... and planning go to temple also canceled....

speaking about 日本, i figure out that today the office building that in front of my dorm, some office have its light on ... are they even working on new year!?

Raining day ... Eternal Calm～

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 18:07:47 GMT

Geez... seems i need to create new カテゴリ or else this ブログ will be in one カテゴリ only... Life-ism

Anyway quiet a while i staying at home for whole day... doing nothing, relaxing ... playing チョコボと魔法の絵本 on NDSlite on bed .... having lunch ... some browsing and email checking ... and taking nap ... i dunno since when, but today is a day when i can feel time running a bit slow just like i want, i wish i can feel like this everyday!

When i start writing this entry, the time is 3:30AM ... still awake, well no problemo, since i sleep long enuf today... on this late snack still accompany me, lol, i need to brush me teeth once again -_-

here some snacks i eat

ＮＯＩＲ Meiji チョコレート

Ｎescafe CAFELATTE instant

Fanta Muscat&Apple

Now i want to talk about Fanta... i dunno in other country is same like in 日本 or not, but my home country, fanta didnt do stuff like in 日本...

Fanta in Japan/日本 somehow really often releasing Limited Edition flavour, i dunno why ... so far i already taste Fanta Melon CreamSoda , Fanta Loves Berry and the クリスマスver. Fanta PartyMix Muscat&Apple

Well actually no big different, its just different in the smell not flavour! my favorite until now are still Fanta Grape and Fanta Melon, but those special flavour is good tho!

And about Muscat.... somehow i realize until now i never eat Muscat fruits.... from it smell it should be sour fruit and it kinda identically to クリスマス things ... but seems we cant find those fruits in asia...

Tomorrow planning are sending left over New Year cards, doing 冬休み宿題 at 池袋スターバックスカフェ ... speaking about 冬休み宿題、what i should write for my 作文 >.< ... seems gonna write about クリスマスイヴェ since i dun know what else i should write.... geez i hate 作文 -_-

hopefully the weather good enuf... from the weather forcast, 今週の土曜日 will be cold! it will be around 4℃！

well need to keep moving... there still things to finish before sleep ...

※ クリスマスイヴェ 2006 pictures uploaded, be sure to check that entry again or check Dragoon V.M. 東京ケータイ

※ New Year Present Cyber☆ＵＰ Present Fave Compilation 「Requiem of MoonLight」

BGM ► DEEN - 夢であるように

► 大山百合香 - 月あかり Full Moon Version

►　Ike Yoshihiro - 明日逢おうよ

スターバックス　クリスマス　カード

Thu, 21 Dec 2006 16:16:35 GMT

Today at last came to my room mailbox, this Christmas card version, actually for Siren News Campaign (Newsletter that related to Starbucks ie. Event . New Product etc.) ... the Campaign start on 11月8日～１２月２５日, if you receive the card before １２月２５日 and u save at least 1000円, ur card automatically enter random lot 1,000名様 for ￥１０００プレセント...

「抽選で1,000名様にホリデースターバックスカードに\1,000が入金される『お年玉プレゼント』に、自動エントリー。年明けの抽選結果をお楽しみに。」　→ taken from Starbucks Official Site JP

I sign up 2 weeks ago, and the card came today from クロネコメール

i just give it a try, signing up for both type cards, using different mail address

and they sent it for both ver. ^-^

This version Starbucks card actually last year America Winter/Christmas Starbucks card, in America you can get this card on Starbucks shop, and u will get special card pouch with the card, please correct me if i wrong, since i got information from several site, so its kinda guessing ^-^;

For everyone in Japan and interested getting this card, there still 2 days for registration, since its free, why u dun take the chance ?

Other way getting this card is in Yahoo Auction Japan, few days ago, i search it for fun, and found out that some people selling it for 1000円 each card.

クリスマスの準備

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 18:01:47 GMT

Christmas Eve...

Well its coming again.... although people that i know didnt make any special preparation for the event, due some reason ie. in japan somehow winter holiday is shorter than summer holiday, even office only get 5 days holiday start from end of year 31th December to 4th January... while other people dun care much about christmas, etc etc. ... but for me, Christmas is special day, its just different than any other event in whole year, its hard to explain, but i just like christmas eve alot ^-^

For preparation, actually i dun make special preparation either, well abit christmas decoration and done ...

here what i done for my preparation, so far i am statisfied enuf with the decoration i made, since i enjoy it for myself hahaha~w

for more image, check Dragoon V.M. その他・MISC

The other preparation of course greetings cards, i am planning to send greetings cards + christmas present since last week..

i did prepare the card and also the gift, but because some reason until now i haven't write not even single card...

maybe because i am still on my school day and everyday there are lots homework + test... but again thats not really matter since i rarely working my homework after school... well its just my usual habit, i keep waiting until i got my mood to do it... but whether i have mood or not tomorrow is the last day or else the card gonna late.

There some people... humm... 2 person i guess, that i want to send greeting cards, but somehow i dunno their address >.<

even 1 person abit kinda lost contact... and while the other somehow i just get know that person, so it might rude to ask his/her address just to send greeting card...

※Dunno why, but somehow today kinda weird, somehow neither in 日本語 or 英語, its kinda hard to express what i want to....

Re-Echoes .... Breeze Resonance

Wed, 13 Dec 2006 16:48:52 GMT

ok, somehow today i get enuf good mood to write this entry, LOL ... this entry is about what been repeated since 2 years and changed in me...

i dunno why, but for a while entry will be about me and around me ... maybe because for quite time, i keep this ramblin' within me

well i am not a type of person that like to share about my personal feeling to other people, yet i dun shut it either, if someone want to listen about my feeling or thinking, i will glad it share it ...

back then, around 4 years ago, actually i often share lots thinking and feeling to my friends (usually gurl though... cough...cough) ... but nowdays, i dun speak about my feeling much, well there is a time that i share those feeling some to my friend, but not much... maybe i get used to be like that ^-^ ... well if i remember back then, the time that i want to speak about my thinking and feeling is the time when i got 'someone special' ... but dunno why, nowdays, either i have someone special or not, i rarely talk about it, somehow those chatting messenger kinda rusty since rarely i use them, that messenger automatically login and idle whole day ... while in chat room (ie. IRC) i speak about what currently those chat room speak... so yeah its been like that for around 3 years ... is it good thing or bad thing, i dun care much ^-^

Well about the thing repeated since past 2 years is 「Love Generation J-Drama」 ... dunno why, since last 2 year, at time like now (near christmas) ... i always got something that remind to that drama and end up watching it again... for this year, coincidencely i saw new torrent at d-addict ... which make me download and watch it again few weeks ago .... is that coincidence ? ... well i dunno what other people comment about that drama, i dun care ... i just enjoy watchin' that drama, and everytime i watch it, the theme song 「true true」 and the opening theme (i forgot the title though,　幸せ○○, piano instrument ver.) really fit to the drama, maybe because i already watchin' it over and over ... but again i find those music really calming... when i hear those music... its make my heart soft ... well since last time i decide to give up aftering the gurl i liked, i decide to change something the inner of myself, well though not much, i think i changed abit and i can face hard problem better than before now ...

The effect by watching 「Love Generation J-Drama」 seems almost none, it just make me think, if there someone special with me in Christmas Eve that will be great ... well somehow beside i like winter season and snow, Christmas is the time i always waiting every year, not becoz i am christian, but on Christmas the spirits of Christmas, decoration, things about Christmas make the Christmas so special... somehow i like watching illumination...

talking about illumination, i often go to 新宿 lately with my friend, just for having coffee or dinner... and enjoying the illumination for short time...

※ Last year, when i watch the drama, i only understand 1/4 of the conversation, but this year becoz i am currently learning 日本語, somehow kinda reverse of last year, when i watch the drama, i understand about 3/4 of the conversation, well there are some words in converstation that i still dun understand though but by hearing the whole converstation i got the meaning, but again, maybe because i already watch it more than twice, that make me easily understand the meaning ^-^;;....

Today 12月15日 ... i found out another things repeated, 「Home Alone」 movie... not only in my home country... but seems every country tv station play that movie every year at near christmas... well i guess the movie itself really suit well in christmas event and how many times u watch the movie, u still enjoying it. Well Christmas coming to the Town folks.... did u already complete ur Christmas Preparation ? ....

About things changed lately... well i already write some in upside... well not much though... i dunno whether my life proggress is to slow or what...

sometimes i suddenly realize that i done the same fault ... while last time i already decide to not make those fault again in the future, but as human, those things really can be helped isnt it ?

Maybe some person think the current me somehow became chill/cold person, well actually not like that, its been like that since, i dunno when but its just my personality, if u see/think 'bout how close u to me, dun waste ur time, since that doesnt have true meaning in me, i didnt think much in those thing, all friends is same, except my family . my love . my really really old friend... thats it.... but u can see the change within me when i have someone in my heart .... somehow the person that i like or love making my heart warm too... not only when i fall in love with the girl, but all the time either when the problem arise or not... when i have someone in my heart, some i myself realize that changes ... um... i ever think that i should change tobe a person like that for whole time, not only when a person that i love is on myside... well maybe next year i will think more about it ^-^

maybe what i write just now, confuse u guys (if u read my previous entry) on last entry, u might think that i am a person that really care about friends... yeah i do care about them, i want to help them when they need it, and of course i like having fun with them, talking about many things, etc etc

but just dun think that i can available for you for 24hours... or asking help when i am on bad mood...

well other than that i guess my friend just ok with me ^-^ ... well maybe a bit confusing, but friend is friend ... i just can't make close friend same like old friend... so close friend or new friend is all same in my eyes... thats why if for some reason the relation to a friend getting farther, at that time i dun care much about it ...

※ i currently updating Dragoon V.M. ... besure to check it when u have time... i upload lots pictures !